A Different Kind of Fairy Tale

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A Different Kind of Fairy Tale is a collection of poems chronicling my coming out process.

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Table of Contents

1) Self-Discovering...............................................7
    - Noose
    - Confession
    - Three [Big] Words
    - Is it OK to love you?
    - Her smile holds a secret
    - Breathe
    - You say it’s wrong

2) Truth-Denying...............................................17
    - My Closet
    - Touch
    - Guilt consumes me while I weep
    - The Scent of Autumn
    - Sleeping
    - Silence
    - That’s a Lie
    - I should have forgotten by now

3) Future-Loving...............................................29
    - Talking About Forever
    - Waiting
    - Goodbye?
    - Questions for My Father
    - I couldn’t love you any more
    - Inspiration
    - Coming to Grips with My Sexuality

Noose

tie the apron strings
behind my back, around my
neck, a woman's role

tie my hands with the
iron's cord, let it swing and
burn my smooth shaved legs

tie back golden locks,
hiding thoughts left still unshared
"ignorance is bliss"

The Scent of Autumn

I know there's the scent of autumn in the air
but my nostrils are filled with smoke
your cigarette stares back at me
and I watch
as one after another they disappear
smoke and ash
and the discarded butt
then it happens
and I'm left
smoke and ash is all that remains
I'm empty
my soul left in your too-full ash tray
is there one last puff left?

now I engage in your bad habits
smoke and ash are all I have of you
I hold onto the butt with my last breath
and swear that someday I'll let you go

Questions for My Father

Do you love me still,
though you think I'll go to hell?
Do you think of me and cry?
Do you wish I would have died?
Do you wish I'd been a boy?
Would I then have brought you joy?
Do you think that I'm a curse?
Could I do any worse?
Will you change your mind someday?
Will you give your girl away?
Will you walk me down the isle,
see my bride and me and smile?